being alone isnt such a bad thing after all

2009-07-05T08:58:00.000-07:00

why so kaypo? wanna read my blog?

dont be a kuku!!!!

haha. joking!

2008-06-10T07:15:00.000-07:00

hmmm...ive been working. nothing new except ive got 2 new dogs :)
adorable yet irritating at times. currently looking for a day job still.
im so tired.

2008-02-12T10:46:00.001-08:00

im back :)

been a little to busy or rather lazy to do updates till theres practically no one reading so whats the point on updating. hahs.

this sem in sch is pretty hectic. projects due but incomplete. having one of the group member walk off when presentation starts in two mins was no joke. now all the projects are over, exams await, pretty stress even though i took the modules before while i was in ngee ann.

over at work is only OK. waitresses are so keen on competing over commission that i cant be bother at all so i just sit aside and play my beloved psp. (where to find a job that can play psp right?...i found it!)

boyfriend is treating me real well. nothing to worry at all, cheers. dote on me like crazy!!!! give me anything i want. its a blessing <3

2008-01-09T06:48:00.000-08:00

yeah..got a new job..dont know its good or bad.
the pay and working hours is rather good :)
so lets hope i'll be happy in the whole new environment la!!!

2008-01-05T05:12:00.000-08:00

its 2008.

and i just found out what kind of friends ive made in one whole year.
friends who fully made use of me. complain abt others in front of me and then rather share joy with the pple they actually complained abt? whats this?

and i just realize what a fool ive been. or rather a retard.
a present that you kept bragging about how nice it was for me while i found out it was a worst amongst all. how sweet.

went out and have fun together but was totally forgotten in your journal post. how thoughtful.
to think i actually gave you so much helped in the past. no, im not looking for returns. i just thought we were good friends but i was wrong.

everything was such a disappointment.
i was so wrong in believing you for choices. so wrong.

2007-12-13T07:08:00.000-08:00

heh heh heh heh

i am so happy

i pass all my papers!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-12-06T08:19:00.000-08:00

exams over..think i'll fail my maths..owell
another $600 to pay to retake bloody money sucker!!!

and im going for a job interview tmr! i hope i get the job and hope the hours is flexible enough.

2007-11-27T05:32:00.000-08:00

english paper was quite horrible today. almost forgotten how to do summary cos i went blank for ten mins or so. sigh~

tmr is maths. some how confident but still its a combination of a + c + f maths all together. pretty stress cos its the only paper i like to do.

not happy today :(

2007-11-25T21:24:00.000-08:00

yay yay yay yay !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1 down 2 more papers to go.

then it will be party party :)

wed will be sleeping day
thurs will be shopping day
friday will partying at attica
sat will celebrating irene's birthday

cant wait for exams to be over....

anyway today's paper really sucks cos i sort of mix up quite a few of the points but now lets hope the marker will be lenient enough to see my relevant sub points.

ciaos~

2007-11-06T02:35:00.000-08:00

im back

cant really bother to change the layout. went to search but nothing nice.
been home for so many days till im so bored.

one more thing...

I HATE SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-12-20T03:29:00.000-08:00

almost two months since i came online.
left china one and joined the cannery-barfly.
new friends new environment new management.
being the pioneer batch of a new place wasnt easy at all, 23 hours of non stop work was really tiring. now, more or less settled down, everything is going on pretty well :)

life now is good. husband is treating me very well, being the sweetess guy and always trying his best to make my life the best. i have no complains just that he's such a pig! hahhaa.

i miss a lot of people. so many that i dont where to start from. till then.

2006-10-25T04:31:00.000-07:00

hello...its been so long.

to all my dear classmates, thanks for the wonderful time spent the last one and a half years. its been great to have you splendid mates :) ive left quietly and you all will be dearly missed me, especially joanne sascha stanley jerald herman shirley.

ive been working full time and its been really tiring but im loving whatever i am doing right now because im happy all the time. having someone who's really sensitive to my feelings and caring about me and taking me into consideration before making any decisions is really blissful. i'll put a photo of us soon aight.

and to you, stop lying to me. all your texts are lies. the word love may be an easy word to you but not me. and please, stop hurting other girls if you do not love them from your heart. dont say you love me still when you already with another. i still wanna be friends with you so please stop all these. you gotta learn to love only one.

and darling girls, i'll meet up with you all soon ok..promise!!! i miss all of you pretty ladies :)

2006-09-27T11:30:00.000-07:00

at work now, there's nothing for me to do compared to those working in the banks. i rather im being kept busy the whole day than playing solitare almost the entire day. then i have to go down to work at night later. hias. my body clock is so screwed but thank god ive missha to protect my face from horrible outburts of exhaustion.

there's a whole lot things i need to do before the new semester commence. so many things to get and im getting a lilttle frustrated because i do not have the spare time.

parents just took off to vietnam awhile ago. im gonna miss them :(
hope mommy buy me something really ncie from there. heh hehh.

im sorry my dear girls for not being able to meet up and all. i'll make time for you all before school starts i promise ok. i'll be missing all you pretty darlings.

2006-09-20T10:05:00.000-07:00

had a long break from work. fours days. slept like a pig and i'm back to work again. argh. my throat still hurts and my nose is still partially blocked. not good at all. my internship boss is rather unhappy with me i think but i dont really cares. anyway, my results sucks big time which got me thinking about school. ohwell.

in two days i spent $700 or rather in a total of four fucking short hours i blew that amount on money. hah but im a happy girl because my urge for shopping a being curbed for now. four new pair of shoes is making me so happy.

went into malaysia last night. the feeling of stepping out of singapore is so so good that i really dont wanna leave malaysia at all. no stress, no work, nothing. just shopping and enjoying my time walking around. i cant wait to go on the next holiday planned. hong kong will be waiting for me :)

for now, i better earn the cash.

2006-09-08T01:00:00.000-07:00

its been such a long time since god knows when i put up at post. i've took a huge daring step into another level of my life during this period of time. exams took a toll on me, and now its attachment and work. i do not know how long can my body can actually take all these shit, which is 18 hours of non stop work hours and only maximum three hours of eye shut. at least i know there is people around me i can lean on especially that particular person. small little acts that he does like staying up with me to study for exams and sending me to the exam hall. sacrificing sleep and rest just to make sure i get to work on time. paying every so much attention to every single detail for my every step. bringing me to places doing stupid things yet we can still be so happy at the same time. our temper are equally bad and equally stubborn, yet the person is able to teach me how to give and take, made me learn the hard facts of life by the hard way. so special because he never gives in and apologise when we quarrel when he knows he's not at fault but explained things so clearly that i cannot be angry with him and understand the entire situation instead.

i've met a totally different person this time round.

2006-08-19T16:45:00.000-07:00

i really hate exams

i am in serious need of shopping

i want so many things

its either shopping or the pretty bling bling.

2006-08-10T04:00:00.000-07:00

had dinner with some close pple for dinner to celebrate my birthday in advance. the meet up was really short but it was really sweet of them <3

my birthday was spent working.

tues night, yvonne, jody, dan and dan's gf was being really really sweet to come all the way down from jurong after work to my workplace just to bring me three cute little cakes and sang me a birthday song. even though it was merely less than ten minutes, i was really touched by what they did.
boss made me drink a waterfall after midnight, it didnt taste really good but it was sweet of him :) though i thought waterfall was a really strong drink, it wasnt after all. hahs.

work tonight was not too bad. parents and the two lil sis came down to my workplace just to say happy birthday and had dinner and a few drinks because i was working and they couldnt celebrate for me. i was really shocked and touched. my parents wasnt angry with me even though i chose to work with a high fever on, they chose to come down to see me and mommy held me really close.

had another flaming, with so many different liquors added into it by the naughty staffs who are working tonight. it was really horrible. im still feeling a lil weird now. but i come to realise this year's birthday wasnt as bad as i thought it was.

and to you, is wishing me happy birthday so hard for you? or you just plainly forgot? but just to let you know, i waited like an idiot for good and sweet wishes from you. because wishes from you are that fucking important to me. dont say im never outta your life anymore because i know i already am. do not worry, i'll never bother you with any messages anymore. no matter how depress i get or i much i wanna leave this world, you will never know. you've hurt me so much this birthday.

2006-08-06T07:33:00.000-07:00

just got back from supper at spice with some of the colleagues. work was crazy on fri night and so empty on sat night. its so weird! ok, there was a crowd later but it was so slow the entire night, and i was so damn bored --" and work later will be equally boring because its sunday.

anway, just a simple note to my sweet and thoughtful friends.

i wanna see you darlings as much as i miss you all. however, i'll be working on my birthday (tuesday till friday) so i cant meet up with you all :( if its a lunch date, it'll be ok because i can still make yeah.

bar none after work, yippee!!!

2006-07-31T19:43:00.000-07:00

made the effort to rush home to send my part of the project. but only to realise my entire part wasnt included in the final report. im utterly pissed and upset. like why the fuck did i even to bother to rush here and there for people and not appreciated in the end.

things haven been going on smoothly. got fucked by parents for not turning up for school, got posted to some stupid association for attachment, and my pay is fucking miserable this month, my love life is fucked as well.

i really wanna quit school but its so hard to bring up the topic.

2006-07-23T16:05:00.000-07:00

dinner with the family on fri and the bill was almost $500 but its all worth it, but i wasted on the food after i puked everything out after being dunk at zouk because it was crazy. was so drunk that i cant remember more than half of the things that happened. hahs. i remembered falling on my bottom at the staircase because i had a big bruise on my ass --"

work last night was fun. not too busy and the crowd was really friendly :) and i sold my first bottle of gordon bleu after six months of work. some guys should really change their pick up lines, gosh! it was so cheessy lah.."oh, do you work here?" i mean hello, im wearing a name tag and in all black attire, open your eyes dude! grins* aloy sent me home after work and riding his bike was breath taking. i almost cried because at one point of time i felt as if i would die from falling off the bike. bad riding experience i swear.

i feel so distant from you all of a sudden. i knows its my wrong, but you dont have to give me the cold shoulder. oh well, i guess you're so over with your feelings for me. and i reckon maybe its time to move on from this point.

2006-07-07T14:00:00.000-07:00

bad times like these are really hard to overcome yet i can still remain happy after taking a emotional ride and a night of flowing tears. i've become stronger after this fucking retarded ride. after being treated like hell, i'll never trust people so easily anymore, not in my fucking entire life, i swear. im glad i have people who love me a lot still.

i came to a glass or rather two glasses of home-brewed chestnut and sugar cane drink mommy made :) felt the love. then saw mommy making crab meat dumplings for me, more love felt. i came home to realise there's so many people around who really appreciates whatever i do, and always around to look out for me and catch me when i fall. and this sat is gonna be a good one because im seeing someone special after quite some time.

im blessed after all.

2006-07-07T03:07:00.000-07:00

losing $170 in soccer had already upset me so much
being back stabbed by a bloody bastard is not doing me any better

why lie to me about so much things
you made me really hate you now
so much that i can kill you

all i need is a shoulder i can lean on
a set of wide open arms to hold me

if only im not so stupid to make that decision
at least i'll have that something i can look forward to every week

yah, if only.

2006-07-02T08:37:00.000-07:00

fucking hell! im very unplease with myself for not betting on tonight's games.
every single score i predicted came true. both countries i said will win won. naybey!
sorry for explicit words but i just cant help it cos i could have extra money for buying things i want. aaaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!!!!!! and i really hate the new law. its stupid! i got stuck in the "smoke chamber" during work. well, because of the law, only one of the pool halls is desinated for smoking and i was allocated in the station for tonight. the fucking entire time my eyes were tearing cos of the overwhelming smoke. and the other half of the time i was cursing myself for not betting. and someone made me really upset again. why must people always play with my feelings when i do not play with theirs because i am nice. i hate these people.

breakfast at macs with marianne shaiful chee navin alyosius and jane. then sat by the river (minus aloysius and jane) for a really good talk about work. thank god for attachment, lucky me for not working full time because it is so political. why cant people just work for the sake of working. why must they always quarrel and take sides. its so hard. i just do not understand. another week just ended. meeting marianne for a lil shopping and chit chat later and beer on mon after my lessons. what a good way to spend time, i like~

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2006-06-29T04:02:00.000-07:00

because in two hours time i have to get up and get ready for school so i decided not to sleep at all. didnt attend school cos i couldnt get my ass off bed and slept for 12 hours straight. dont you dare start thinking im a pig cos i only got to sleep 6 pathetic hours for the past three days. which is 2 hours each day. so tmr im going sch and come back home to sleep and head for work again. work tonight was boring and my colleauges were all being so sweet to me :) thank god for such sweet people around me. im a little bored now. and im missing someone so much. its really hard to forego something i had for almost three years. sigh.

2006-06-26T06:31:00.000-07:00

Life haven been going too good. Losing in bets and my bank account is squeezed dry :(
im so so exhausted cos i didnt get a really good rest during the holidays due to work. everything is going bad. i dont wanna go back to school later, i just wanna work and sleep. im thinking of quitting school cos ive been offer three jobs that are paying so high. im so tempted to just go straight into the working society. but im still feeling insecure about going into the real world. everyone is so realistic and selfish. i still dont know if im ready or not.

i hate studying.

big big big sorry to my project mates. i apologies for not taking part much in the project my dear mates. cos of work and time, the best i could do was to print out the project for you guys.

i loathe school

2006-06-20T05:37:00.000-07:00

bloody togo. fucking ukraine.
lost 120 in one night.
should i bet tmr?

im sorry for being such a horrible girl. i dont know what decision should i make at this moment cos i realized i've changed. i'm no longer the girl you first met. take it or leave.

2006-06-18T07:30:00.000-07:00

cheers! hurray to me!
work was really exciting tonight :) probably because i was anxious about the soccer match. my first bet in my life and guess what?!?! i won!!!!! everyone predicted i'll lose cos i betted on Ghana to win Czech Republic. Ghana smash Czech with 2-0 !!! now who is getting the last laugh eh? heh heh. then, its the match on Italy and USA. i betted five bucks on five different predictions. i won! draw match. 1-1. didnt win much but its all gooooddd!!

really tired out. tmr will be the six day of non-stop work week. den i'll get to rest on monday! happy happy! im still deciding whether to bet on tmr's matches. bottom line - dont be too greedy cos luck comes in small bundle :)

im going to bed now. nights all~

2006-06-13T13:16:00.000-07:00

last night was the first time i got piss drunk and someone had to send me right to my doorstep and pass me to my sister. not glam not glam (shake head)
all the bartender sean's fault. empty half a bottle of vodka in a single jug. four of us with a jug each towards the end. and by the time japan lost to aussie, i was way too high. now i have to nurse the fucking headache. its been a long long time since i drank this much. worse still when im already sick and i still drank. at thie rate i'll never recover and mommy is gonna scold me for wasting money on a doctor when i do not even take care of myself properly. hahs :p

work on wed till sunday. boring~

2006-06-08T17:45:00.000-07:00

paper was really easy but i made so many careless mistakes and im so upset with myself :( therefore, i went for lunch at swensons with stanley. went to shaped my brows and did an impulse facial which costs me a bomb! but its all goooooddddd yyyyyyoooooooooo! hahs. still have some money left which is good and pay cheque is coming :) this time with tips! yoohooo~

i'll show you kapos what im eyeing and saving up for...and you all can be really sweet if you get me one of these for my coming birthday yes? heheh~

aren't they gorgeous? especailly the black one with the gems..sexy!
im so in love with them

2006-06-07T13:20:00.000-07:00

I really hate my body I swear.

who gets fever when the clock strikes midnight
fucking 40 degrees with a really painful headache leaves me crying cos I so wanna sleep but I cant and I just kept tossing and turning in my sweet smelling and oh so comfortable bed

three aspirins fought the headache to its minimal power and the temperature now by two degrees. And I only manage to sleep around two in the morning. Next, why the hell is my digestive system to weak. I only ate bread for the whole of yesterday and I felt so bloated. And this morning I just drank a glass of prune juice, I ended up with diarrhea. my whole body is feeling so lethargic and weak now and i just want to lie on my bed and sleep. but I CAN'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cos i have two more papers waiting for me and im still not done with studying. why!!

meanwhile, i missing so many people now
im in need of~
my pretty girls
my sweet darling
a trip to spa
my skin needs attention
my feet and hand needs their therapy
a night of crazying drinking and dancing (its been so long since i went clubbing)
my beauty sleep

but i do not need shopping despite the fucking tempting GSS.
i need to hit my target :)

2006-06-04T15:45:00.000-07:00

woohoo~

the accounts paper was do-able. just like chee had predicted - first paper will be easy and the following papers are gonna kill.
so i better work harder so i get to slaughter the next few common tests. hehe :)

lunched at thai express and caught poseidon in the afternoon followed by desserts at cartel. good shit! hahs. work was rather boring last night. the crowd dissapear around two in the morning and i got to clean the locker room which was good cos i simply got nothing to do. timsum at geylang with felix sharleen and sean after work which was a hell lot of fun. felix is so so weird! got to sleep at seven in the morning. the got drunk in mos last night..so horrible.

work later. and im suppose to be studying econs now but i cant concentrate. blah!
i better not screw this paper or else the i have to take the retest which i'll definitely fail (according to the fucking sarcastic lecturer). fuck this shit!

ciao~

2006-05-30T04:20:00.000-07:00

bonjour. good morning :) still contemplating whether to sleep or not. ive got to wake up at seven which leaves me less than three hours of sleep. and if i sleep i probably cant get up for lecture. and im up and not sleeping after work cos ive got to do my report but the file cant be open so i have to do it in school tomorrow. fuck.

work was horrible cos it was extremely boring. so we just stood around like statues. literally human mannequins (spell?) went for supper at the kopitaim opposite cine. really good supper though i didnt ate much. marianne alfie ricarldo chee andrew sean and me. the stories they tell and the ridiculous jokes they crack made me laughed till i teared. it was a really good way to start a brand new week or rather a streeful week for me.

common tests starting this sat and im only starting to study tmr when i get back home from school. i dont wanna screw my papers and my grades at the end of this year please. yes i didnt fail but i still wanna get my ass a seat in smu so i really gotta mug --"

last week was rather okay. good and bad weighs equally so i dont wanna harp on anything. maybe a little fact about me being piss with a particular person. i dont know why im feeling this way but i just hate it. who likes being copied? every actions i take the person will follow. everything i have the person will want to have it. its already bad being labeled at work and now this have to happen. i really regretted making that stupid decision or rather blame my fucking stupid mouth for asking it so randomly.

pay day is coming but im not spending it cos ive things to get. read : neccessities

ok, i think i'll get a power nap. nights to me~

2006-05-20T14:40:00.000-07:00

last night was crazy. i was happy at work enen though i was thrown all alone and doing all the work by myself. ended up with a sprain ankle cos our place is full of "pit-holes". so i trip, sprained my ankle and broke the fucking ash tray. yay! i was happy cos its a friday and i was so looking forward for today cos im gonna meet a very special person. so there~

now im feeling all so moody and angry. nobody loves me :(
im already so sick with all the illness and now i have to endure the pain of the bloody ankle. first the person tell me to have dinner with people i never mingle with before and in the end i got fed until i dont wanna step out of the house. and then my sister dont wanna have lunch with me or rather breakfast cos she claimed she ate a piece of bread and eating some noodles will make her fat. FINE! i got really upset and didnt wanna eat anymore. fuck fuck fuck!!!!

why is everyone being so mean to me?!??!?!?
why does everyone take me for granted?
am i too nice to the extent that people know i wont get angry even if they cross the line? is it? i hate it when people do that to me. but i hate myself even more for not showing my unhappiness to them to let them know i do not like what they are doing to me. but i cant. i just cant. i hate myself for being so soft to people. urgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

why cant people just make a little tiny effort to make me happy?

work at nine later
i really hope its gonna be a good night.
im so exhausted from being sick.

being tired mentally and physical is really bad for health :(

2006-05-19T02:22:00.000-07:00

i hate this week i swear. im mentally and physically tired :x
sch work is piling up and im starting to feel the stress
plus the fact im turning full time when june starts but it doesnt make a difference from part time because its just one more day of work and a little more hours.
projects and tutorials piling up. common tests starting in less than a month.
i need a break as soon as possible.

everything is not going right again
i really cant decide whether i like or hate money or maybe its just a love/hate relationship with it. i cant live without it and yet i hate the way i have to think twice before i spend it. and now its causing so many problems at home.

i wanna go shopping
i wanna just lie on my bed and sleep
i dont wanna study
i dont wanna work

i just wanna leave this place and never come back.

2006-05-09T15:00:00.000-07:00

last sat crowd was a killer. people got drunk, they are fucking stupid cos they do not understand the meaning of 'excuse me'. i got stomp of my feet countless times and people got stepped by boots countless times too (grins). i elbow-ed a lot of people, yes both bastards who want some flesh from the women who are not wearing any bra, and those bitches who refuse to move cos they want some flesh from the dude they're eyeing for. ive got a really bad throat from shouting too much and its killing me!!! so i didnt attend school today --" i did all my tutorial and didnt go to sch, how very stupid. mid week tmr, another busy day on thurs and on a happier note, theres no sch on fri!!!! yyaayyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

drunkards are like retards. and colleagues who yelled at each other are just plain childish. you do not pay me my salary and you are not my mom or dad. so stop giving orders like you are dude. grow up! it was a really exhausting night. the busiest night ive come across. fucking hell.

work on wed thur fri and sun. i like~

im missing you every single moment darling
it really hurts not being able to see you talk to you
i just want you by my side all the time
just you and me in our own world

2006-05-04T18:30:00.000-07:00

lots of things have been happening. been working like a mad bitch last week (five day a week) and fours days this week. i miss a morning lecture on wed and my french class today cos i couldnt wake up in time on wed and im having a really bad headache today. wtf right? yah..im feeling so screw this week. and ive got a bad scolding from someone. and everytime i see this particular person, i feel so out of place and stress because its so hard to please the person. or maybe im not fated to be living with the person in the coming future. i haven't been in the right state of mind recently. im feeling so confused, so down. all of a sudden i just wanna be left alone, in my own world cos everything seems just wrong.

another friday night tmr where people pay massive amounts of money to get drunk. i likeee~

oh! irene please comfirm sat ok cos ive taken sat (13th may) off. so the dinner better be on ok my dear lesbain baby? im missing you :)

2006-04-26T03:17:00.000-07:00

flu is no joke. thinking flu was nothing serious, i put off visiting a doc for weeks. and i end up with infection and lymphnotes :( so now i have antibiotics to take. im up and wide awake at this hour because the effect of the medicine have worn off and im so bloody awake now. plus the fact ive got lecture at 9 to attend. laughs

sch ended at 11 yesterday and with nothing to do, i headed to town with michelle :)
had lunch and michelle being damn nice and sweet of her, accompanied me to search for a salon to do my hair. and we ended up at fareast to do it. $140 bucks and i dont see the difference. what the fuck right? its not even the colour i saw on the sample. should have just gone with the blue black and red highlights. (i feel like stabbing myself) i'll do it at the end of the year i suppose plus cutting my hair short, yes?

how the hell am i gonna pass 4 fucking hours in sch tmr? someone please tell me? to wait four hours for accounts lecture to start. what the hell! i hate waiting :x
work from wed all the way to sunday. its gonna be so tiring..oh what did i get myself into lah i swear.
*im missing you hons

2006-04-20T13:00:00.000-07:00

last weekend was way to bad for me. oh well its over anyway.
blew three hundred dollars in less than two hours. but still im happy.
sch's starting on mon and i have yet to print the notes.

class chalet wasnt really that good because theres so lil people!!!
but i was well entertained nonetheless. grins*
work again tonight tmr night the following night as well.
and this time i put my pay aside.

im gonna bed now. ciaos~

2006-04-14T11:43:00.000-07:00

i really wonder if i should move out and live on my own
is it better? since it is so fucking hard so get along with the girls at home
and the one who love and dotes on me the most is in camp
that explains why im feeling down and lonely inside so often nowadays
its hard to meet the girls because they have attachment and when they are done with their work, its my turn to start work. sigh.

class chalet this coming week. yay!
this week i get to see the baby for four whole days and im loving it.
its been so many days and the boy have grown so skinny my goodness!
and it looks like they are treating him badly i swear.
baby please eat more in camp to replenish your energy ok?
*i still want the lil tummy of yours hons

shopping with my baby
work later and all the way till 430. yawns*
and goddammit! im having hangover from last night beer --"

2006-04-05T16:20:00.000-07:00

missing a particluar person so dear to me. the feeling inside is so tough to decribe. everynight i just want to look at the someone. hold the someone to sleep. but i just cant and i hate it. patience is a virtue. but i loathe waiting so what should i do?

work tonight
work on fri
work on sat plus a glimpse of the someone on sat which i really cant wait
rot on sun (hopefully a dinner with someone)

and the routine repeats next week. what the fuck am i doing with my life?
cos im too lazy to even step out of house. hahs.

2006-04-01T16:00:00.000-08:00

i really detest s*f.
took my love away from me.
couldnt spare just a lil more time for him to be with me. why?
why is it so unfair?
if anyone ask me will army build or break a relationship
my answer is break.

i just want time to pass really fast for one more week
and thats when i really spend time with him.

and is making more efforts to cheer me up that hard?
i know you aint happy either
you aint satisfied with the sudden change
i know you want to see me as much as i want
but, hey, im still a girl. your princess if you still remember.

2006-03-30T23:16:00.000-08:00

does karma really exist?
its time to test it out

its been a rather emo week
and from tmr onwards it will be work all the way till tues
den it will be work again.

i fucking hate s*f. hell with all those duties and confinement
and now i wont get to see my love one for even a full whole day till two weeks later :(
two fucking weekends i dont get to see him. and the time table is out rather flexible for me so i can work.

i hate this feeling inside me

2006-03-24T13:43:00.000-08:00

say yay with me my darlings :0
i passed my exams!!!!!!
but still not very satisfied with my results even when baby said ive done a good job. the module that i thought i'll do best it which is accounts, ive got a bloody fucking D (argh!) and the module i thought i'll fail which is business management, ive got a very decent B (did they mark wrongly?) haha. which i find it rather weird. oh well...i know i pass and that will make my parents happy but when they see the results they wont be that happy anymore.

im finally seeing the boy tmr and i really cannot wait. sispec is so much tougher than bmt i swear, because i cant talk and sms with him anytime i want and he cant do the same that often anymore. it really sucks cos i miss him a lot and feeling so lsot without him. why must the g*** be so mean? biatcchhh!

work again later and there's another event of this week. i hate events, freeflow drinks which those people order and drink like its the end of the world. i need a break with the love. but i have to wait for another year plus for it. its so longgg.

honey please hurry back :(

2006-03-16T23:33:00.000-08:00

wed went really really well for me despite the girls i asked to join me for the parade was ill/bf/attachment. i had superb company of two great humorous guys :) chris and ivan who are the love bros. the parade was rather boring at first and squeezing with the kiasu parents of the recruits ( now privates) that very day. all the jokes we cracked and laughing almost the entire time. and how we all agree that all ns boys looked exactly like each other in their smart four.

wanted seoul garden for dinner so we headed down to the one at jurong point only to find out it closed down. took another cab to westmall only to realise it no longer exist. i love the cab rides with them. the boys literally went crazy on the cab ride from pasir ris to jurong. (laughs) they're nodding to the house music chris played and it looked hilarious especially when the love do it to a motor-cyclist and the guy got a shocked. anyway, we ended up having BK for dinner and we decided to go halo bar at ngee ann for some drinks (i didnt wanna go initially).

four of us finished a bottle of johnnie walker and nobody was drunk, just very very happy and smiling with glee. i was glad i went down with them because it was really fun laughing and playing. off to chris house for gin&tonic balieys&greentea coffeemartini b52. swear i reach my peak. woke up in the morning and the love and i cant remember anything clearly from last night. and we slept twelve hours straight. and ive got injuries on both my elbows which ive got no idea how i got them.

dinner at my parent's place with the boy. ending with a talk with the love about our future. and how both of us wish we dont have to grow up turning into adults with so much problems to solve. bloody hell. career money time. fuck all these and its really stressing me already. i dont wanan grow up so fast.

movie and japanese food tmr with baby then its off to work (yes work again) and he's going to report to his new unit on monday. aights, till then.

2006-03-14T13:02:00.000-08:00

things haven been so good lately
work was really tiring because people just got their salary thats why it was so fucking crowded last weekend. reckon this weekend will be the same

honey agreed that im too nice for my own good
people never returns the favor because its human nature

passing out parade of the love tmr
bmt is over and i get to see him more often :)
but none of my close girls are able to come with me
which really sucks.

ahhh..fuck all these
i really need to get outta town.

2006-03-10T16:48:00.000-08:00

Appearance

I am shorter than 155cm
I think I am ugly sometimes
I have many scars.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different color.
I have a tattoo.
I am self-conscious about my appearance.
I've had braces.
I wear glasses.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
I have more than 2 piercings
I have piercings in places besides my ears
I have freckles.

Family/Home Life

I've sworn at my parents.
I've run away from home.
I've been kicked out of the house.
My biological parents are together.
I have a sibling less than one year old.
I want to have kids someday.
I've had children.
I've lost a child.

School/Work

I'm in school
I have a job.
I've fallen asleep at work/school.
I almost always do my homework.
I've missed a week or more of school.
I failed more than 1 subject last year.
I've stolen something from my job
I've been fired.
I've skipped school.

Embarrassment

I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
Disney movies still make me cry.
I've peed from laughing.
I've snorted while laughing.
I've laughed so hard I've cried.
I've glued my hand to something
I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I've had my pants rip in public

Health

I was born with a disease/impairment.
I've gotten stitches./staples.
I've broken/fractured a bone.
I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
I've had my teeth removed.
I had a serious surgery.
I've had chicken pox.

Traveling

I've travelled over 200km a day.
I've been on a plane.
I've been to Canada.
I've been to Mexico.
I've been to Niagara Falls.
I've been to Japan.
I've been to Europe.
I've been to Africa.

Experiences

I've gotten lost
I've seen a shooting star.
I've wished on a shooting star
I've seen a meteor shower.
I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
I've kicked a guy where it hurts...
I've been to a casino.
I've been skydiving.
I've gone skinny dipping.
I've played spin the bottle.
I've drank a whole litre of milk in one hour.
I've crashed a car...
I've been Skiing
I've been in a play/musical...
I've met someone in person from the Internet..
I've played a prank on someone.
I've ridden in a taxi.
I've eaten Sushi.

Relationships

I've gone on a blind date.
I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
I miss someone right now.I have a fear of abandonment.
I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality

I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
I've had a crush on a teacher.
I am a cuddler.
I've been kissed in the rain.
I've hugged a stranger.
I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime

I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
I've snuck out of my house.
I have lied to my parents about where I am..
I am keeping a secret from the world.
I've cheated while playing a game.
I've cheated on a test...
I've run a red light
I've been suspended from school.
I've witnessed a crime.
I've been in a fight...
I've been arrested...
I've shoplifted

Drugs/Alcohol
I've consumed alcohol.
I regularly drink.
I've passed out from drinking.
I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
I've smoke cigarrettes
I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
I've eaten shrooms.
I've done hard drugs.
I have cough drops when I'm not sick
I can't swallow pills.
I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
I have been diagnosed with clinical depression
I shut others out when I'm depressed.
I take anti-depressants.
I'm anorexic or bulimic.
I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
I've hurt myself on purpose
I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide

I'm afraid of dying.
I'm not afraid of dying.
I hate funerals.
I've seen someone dying.
Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
Someone close to me has committed suicide.
I've planned my own suicide.
I've attempted suicide.
I've written a eulogy for myself

Materialism

I own over 5 rap CDs.
I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
I collect comic books.

Political/Social Attitudes

In general, I don't like people.
I'm a feminist.
I'm outgoing.
I listen to political music.
I'm Democratic.
I'm Republican.
I'm liberal.
I'm religious.
I dress fairly modestly.
My attitude is, "If you've got it, flaunt it."

Random

I can sing well.
I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
I open up to others easily.
I watch the news
I don't kill bugs
I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
I curse regularly.
I sing in the shower.
I am a morning person.
I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
I'm a snob about grammar.
I am a sports fanatic.
I twirl my hair
I have "x"s in my screen name..
I love being neat
I love Spam
I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
I bake well.
My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue...
I would wear pajamas to school.
I know how to shoot a gun
I am in love with love...
I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
I laugh at my own jokes.
I eat fast food weekly.
I believe in ghosts.
I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
I am really ticklish.
I love white chocolate
I bite my nails
I play video games
I'm good at remembering faces.
I'm good at remembering names
I'm good at remembering dates.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
My answers are totally honest

ok now..im done with this bloody tag thanks to michelle. i wont tag anyone but whoever wanna do it just take it :)

work at 830 till 330. going for a movie with colleagues after work :) my legs are aching so should i wear my boots or sneakers? and the boy is passing out this coming wed and i cant wait! here comes the quality and quantity time together. i love it. hehheeh.

2006-03-02T23:08:00.000-08:00

yay! its all over and im so so happy :)
no more crammings at night till morning and i go for paper.
went for all my papers without sleeping. smart aye?
so now its work and play.

to all who kept asking me where i work
baize china one at clarke quay level two
now you know. its a lounge/club.
vodka one for one all night everyday so its a pretty good deal
but please dont get bloody hell drunk at my work place or else i'll make sure you wont be entertain when you visit next time. grins*
oh and if anyone wanna work at my work place, you're very welcome to (ladies only)
the pay is not too bad and the people are really nice, so yeah.

im yearning for a medi&pedi
and a foot massage

hell to work on fri nights. blah!

im seeing the love on sat and i cant wait :)

2006-02-12T10:30:00.000-08:00

an incoming call woke me up
an outgoing call made me cant go back to sleep
ive just got that who should i believe feeling

who on earth have got their toes numb before?
well, i swear ive got it.
standing on an three inches boots for the whole fucking eight hours plus walking non stop made my whole body aches and my feet really really hurts
last night event was pretty smooth except the two drama mama people who liked to stare and fight. carlson and i felt that it was worth working last night. ugly words spew out of their mouths, exchange of blows and blood shed. hahs. it was a hilarious sight even when a guy almost punch me cos i was so near them but aloysius came to block me.
stupid ignorant young oranizers. underage ass who cant get into any club was there last night. cheapo shit kept asking for freeflow even though its over. these people are dumb. acting as if they know everything but they are just plain rich people's brats.

valentine's coming.
baby will be in camp :(
but he is the sweetest yesterday.
so sweet that eating at the foodcourt is so enjoyable
buying the dior eye shadow for me despite saying he'll get it if its within his limits :)
he's such a gem, a gem i loved more that any other precious stone.

i was thinking, does girls wanna spend quality or quantity time with their boyfriend? some will say quality and some will say quantity. for me, heh heh. i want a little of both. every weekend passes so fast plus the fact im working, theres so so little time for me and him. fuck lah, so emo now. ever since chinese new year, i dont even get to see him for an entire day. im not asking for much either cos im working and i can only see him in the day. hope things will be better.

i hate exams. i just cant seem to be able to conentrate on the disgusting notes. its pissing me off. i cant get things done properly and my morale is extremely low these days. so many things im worrying about. and its giving headaches all the time and all i can do is eat asprin. my life is so pretty screwed.

another event tonight. a better one i suppose because people are the older crowd who are more sensible and decent. i hoped my feet will survie later.

im going for a puff ~

2006-02-09T23:25:00.000-08:00

mos-ed with row and crystal on the second day of chinese new year
mos last night with joanne and sascha
guys on the dancefloor are nothing but fucking assholes
hope they bloody get what they ought to deserve.
thanks for the nights girls :)

supper with irene hazel may catherine steven and wan.
the car ride was mad! but it was damnn goood!!!!
i cant wait to see you girls for supper again
and i just realise three of us (may irene and me) are in pink and red
such coincidence my darlings

hahs. was damn bored at home. and i was disturbing the person next to me.
which is...mommy. she was eating grapes and i kept snapping her and she got a little annoyed.
heh heh. she looked like me? i think my mom looked pretty young for her age
its time for me to buy anti aging products. hahaa.

exams is only two weeks away. and i have still so much to study. bloody hell.
only confident with accounts and macro. the rest sucks. or maybe wcom because its just another essay writting. so two course to memorise like HELL!!! and the baby made me tell him what i studied everynight. which is good even though its gonna be tough. at least its a motivation for me to study. so good for me lah! and i cant wait to see him on sat! everything planned out.

sweetheart, im looking forward to our sweet yet exciting adventure <3

aight. till then :)

2006-02-01T12:37:00.000-08:00

mos on mon with row and crystal
saw trudy and company
good company + over dose of liqour = madness!
the music was dammnnnn good
mos was such a blast :)
photos will be up soon (i hope)

met the botak at richard's place
the amount of alcohol consume by the guys was ectremey SCARY!!!
all knocked out.

macroecons now and im damn bored
another 30 mins to kill...
pepper lunch with my fav girls from class
shopping with crystal later..

work on the weekends. i hate.
work is getting a toll on me already
i hate drunkards at work place
i wanna go back to mos lah!

hey monster! hurry back cos im missing you!

2006-01-29T21:38:00.000-08:00

happy chinese new year to all :)

had only 3 hours of sleep and i had to go house visiting.
lost quite a bit at the table playing blackjack. ~!@#$
and something upset me very badly
what a chinese new year.

row cant make it for drinks
and me and crystal felt that it'll be bored with only two of us
so it was cancel.
now im fucking bored at home.
had two glasses of wine and three beers
and hell i cant smoke at home.
its horrid.

it cny yet i feel like crying.
no amount of money ive got in my bag can make me happy

except you.

2006-01-24T13:32:00.000-08:00

equations formulaes numbers are killing me at the moment
with the intense pain in my head, tell me how the hell am i gonna pass the paper later
how???

ahh.fuck that econs.
got the job and im starting tmr.
the place is huge and there's so much to do
really hoping damn hard that i wont make any mistakes tmr night

wed-work
thurs-meet the girls (i cant wait)
fri-work/meet botak(i can hardly wait)
sat-work
sun-cny(i can see the $$$ in my head now)

and i need to sleep or rather ive been sleeping too much till i never get enough of sleeping. so great isnt it. the bed is so so tempting but ive got formulaes waiting for me :(
packed my table and closet. and i realised how much rubbish i have. hahahs
two more hours before i set my ass off to take the paper. and maybe i can go get a nice pair of wedges of cny. heh heh but i better not let the mom sees it or else she's gonna scream again.
daddy just complaint the my shoes filled up almost 3/4 of the new shoe shelf but i think its not my fault. cos my mom and sisters wears my shoes as well. so there!

i wanna put my new photos but there's really a lot and im too lazy.
better catch some sleep before the paper will do me good. rriigghhtt.

2006-01-13T18:50:00.000-08:00

went to school less than two hours and im home now!
just finish slicing fish under the supervision of the mom
and im extremely surprise i did a better job than the sis who took home econs
hahs. because im the only one in the family who do not succeed in the kitchen.
heh heh heh but today i slice the fish. which makes me a better kitchen helper right?
days in school was pretty good except the fact that peace within the people is always disturb by one guy in class.

teasing: to annoy or mock; to make fun of; mock playfully; to arouse hope, desire, or curiosity in without affording satisfaction.
joking: Something said or done to evoke laughter or amusement, especially an amusing story with a punch line; a mischievous trick; a prank; an amusing or ludicrous incident or situation.

sometimes i wonder whether he knows the difference between teasing and joking. he always compare with the top scorer in class(which is girl), and give sarcarstic remarks like "99% or 100% again huh. come on, tell me leh." or indirectly saying im fat with sentences like "if wyann can wear, then someone else can wear already lah" and i'll just shut up most of the time. and the sweet sascha will tell him he's mean but he never bothers.

he give utter stupid comments during class(maybe hoping to gain some participation marks with his noise) and bound to hurt almost every girl's feelings and pride with his bloody insensitive words or remarks. he's a nice and a guy with humor. but at times, most of the girls in class rather he keep his mouth shut.

sascha and i was talking before our movie. the top scorer deserve to get the best score because she puts in a lot of effort and i do mean a lot. i admit i use to think that she such a bootlicker, but when i think about her, i felt guilty. she's a foreigner and if she dont score well she'll be sent back. and she's always willing to help everyone. people dislike her probably because they're jealous of her perfect academic results. sigh~ i really hope that the guy will care about other people's feelings before he say anything. even guys cant take is nonsense. perhaps he's still not mature yet and i jsut have to tolerate for two more years and just wish he become more sensitive towards his own classmates. till then.

anyway.......
im really glad that everything is over.
thanks to all who show lots of concern, mommy's injury is getting a lot better :)
thanks to my sweetest botak, who gave up going to chinablack with his mates and spent the night at the hospital with me but have to leave the ward because it was an all women ward. despite continuous persuasion, telling him to go club, he refuse. what a sweet baby. and instead of going to sleep when he reach home, i realise he was waiting for me to get home but i told he to rest first. he's such a dear :)

i hate projects! they're hell of a workload. i rather have tutorials to do man. job hunting tmr again. and i really hope it wont rain cos it's super uber cold nowadays, and yesterday temperature was 26 degrees outside, almost like cameron highlands.

ok..im gonna watch tv now. ciaos~

2006-01-05T00:45:00.000-08:00

im so not in the study mood and its not good at all.
accounts paper was ok cos i took accounts back in sec school
but macro econs is another killer even though its only mcqs

lost my pretty mac eye liner
and the boy is having shooting training
so i'll only get to see him on sun. grumbless

this post is rather random cos i still dont feel like studying
and im coughing like hell with a horrible throat
and there still two bloody projects due before chinese new year
aahhh. i hate school but i'll suffer without a diploma and a degree
i hate the real world when everything is so tough.
almost everyone is materialistic and putting on fake fronts

job hunting next week when my tests are over
and swimming trips i promised myself this brand new year
this sem is gonna end and exams are drawing near
year two is next, i wonder will it be like worse than sem one.
i really need to get a better gpa, or else i can just shut up.

aight. better go study econs. nights all :)

2006-01-02T22:30:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 2006 EVERYONE!

i love 2005 even though ive been crying in the start of the year.
i spent my christmas and new year eve with all my love ones :)

had dinner at thai express
followed by drinks at eski bar ( hell it was damn cold lah! )
the boy stayed with me even when he wanted to drink with his bunk mates
*baby, i really appreciatiate what you did ok.

the countdown was good. playing daidee and i lost all three rounds
with drinks and food. it was so so fun leh!!!
love was really all around right irene?
it's our date! now i really cant wait for the next one with you and jillyan again!
and i was really glad to receive a phone call from jody and von which ive not seen or hear from them for eons! *von&dy, we better meet i tell you!

new year day was filled with blessings and love again
yewjin's sis gave birth to a baby girl and she is so beautiful
and i have never see his parents so happy before.

accounts test tmr. big time sians lah!
job seeking this week
and its time to stick to my resolutions

take care all! best wishes for 2006 :)

2005-12-29T17:31:00.000-08:00

this year christmas was rather a quiet affair for me
but its a really beautiful and full of love christmas . i likeeee

the eve was just dinner at billy bombers plus a movie of the night
narnia, the lion, the witch, and the wardrobe.
all the the cutest botak.
a pretty braclet for christmas from love :)

christmas was at row's palce for bbq
thanks to the organiser jiaqi.
filled with love, fun and laughter
hellos&hugs, bbq-ing, greetings!, exchange of presents, photo taking, more bba-ing, more photo taking, indian poker with greentea/vodka/coke/baileys/sprite/ hoegarden.
a goodnight sleep in baby's arms :)

now, i cant wait for sat!
with almost the same people this time.
and the first countdown with the love just like christmas
we're all gonna have such an awesome night!
so much love
so much fun
so much laughter
ooohhhhh...i really cant wait!!!

2005-12-20T22:56:00.000-08:00

ive resort to blogging to curb my boredom
and the humidness is irritating the hell outta me.
just got off the phone with the mankali, that poor boy's having guard duty tonight
with less than 4 hours of sleep..how can!?!?!
but it's also good cos that means he wont have to do guard duty during christmas or new year :)

i haven been studying
i know, very bad.
went to remove stitches of my gum this afternoon
no, it doesnt hurt lah! heh heh heh
blown a huge amount on cosmetics
wah! make up can do wonder leh...made my face look slimmer. hurhurhur
and my eyes look bigger too. yeah!
but ahhhhhh! my fringe is still very short hence i still look very unglam :(
even the love said i look like some long hair butch. evil

yet to buy the christmas present
and im short of money alr...gotta start looking for job asap
and thank goodness chinese new year is during jan or else....
lalallaa..so random i know.

gotta go watch tv now.

2005-12-18T23:59:00.000-08:00

woooweeee!!! holidays is here :)
and christmas is another week away. i cant wait cos i'll be seeing my girls!

the bca test wasnt easy at all,
maybe i didnt study hard enough
maybe i wasnt patient enough to do the test properly
maybe i was too anxious to see my baby.

went back to workplace to return the uniform
and it was good to see my super friendly colleagues
and i was pretty surprise at the sudden increase in number of new staffs. oh well.
had dinner with the boy and over to song's place for awhile.
and the boy and i conclude that both of us cannot be in the PR line when we start working.
hahs. so not sociable.

i was so surprise to see the boy get up before me on a sat morning
and he was polishing his boots and even his dad got a shocked. whhahaa
went to catch sawII and kingkong. both are worth watching :)
the kuku boy went to liquidroom with his bunkmates while i stayed in his room the night
and i was up the whole night with a headache. i wont say it here cos he know what he had done

went for timsum at yumcha with his mom,sis and bro in law this morning
wasnt really that good though. walked around the shopping centre
and i was really glad the his mom likes me! hahahha.
as the boy would put it, "green light alr la!"
went back and slept for a short while before he had to return back to camp

had a 9 course dinner at carlton for the granny's 80th birthday
i only had 8 course cos i couldnt eat anymore.
pretty fun and the angpow granny gave was really priceless :)
nothing can beat what was inside.
walked back home with daddy,mommy and the two younger sisters.
and im still very full! and poor boy didnt had dinner at all.

another long week...a lot of studying must be done lah
byebye.

2005-12-15T21:00:00.000-08:00

21 hours till i see my baby! i cant waitttttt!!!! :)

bca test tmr. still rather scare even though i finish studying it for it alr. hias
yeah! my pay is here which means i must save it.

went to have a haircut this afternoon and omfg!
i look like some cheena ah lian doll lah. stupid hairdresser snip my fringe off when i wasnt looking! and saying its very cute and its very in now. argh!
i know its in. but its in for those ah lians!! not me!!!!!
goodness. now i have to live with hairpins till my fringe grow longer. damnit!
i bet my love is gonna laugh his ass off when he sees me tmr.

met jiaqi to do some studying after the horrible haircut.
nothing new though..and tt lil girl bought a tube she's been wanting to buy.
she looks happy! hahs.
jiaqi: im happy to see you happy ok. glad that everything between you&him is good :)

gotta go re-study for bca test
byebye.

2005-12-09T23:55:00.000-08:00

exactly one more week and the boy will be back as a man
then it me and you again baby :)
it's been pretty ok for me even though im missing him like crazy
and each time he calls, he really made me giggle and elated.

i finished watching da chang jin! go watch cos the story line is better than any korean drama.
i need to study now cos common tests are coming!
ive decided to switch my running to swimming cos my knees are giving way
but running is still the best lah..hias.

the trip to the dentist today was not bad
there wasnt any pain cos of the jab but now im taking painkillers so surpress the pain
how wonderful lah. and i still have to go back to visit the dentist next week.

ive been putting on some unsightful kilos cos ive left my job
but i know the love still wants me so its ok la..right toot?
heh heh..
its swimming in the mornings and lecture notes in the afternoons for the weekends.

7 more days till my hand slip into yours

2005-12-05T03:00:00.000-08:00

my boy have left on friday morning to serve the country :(

and im been occupying myself with the korean drama which is so unbelieveable touching.
and i must be so lucky so have irene asked me on fri after my love left for dinner and majong session over at her place. i really think that im lucky. ehh, no! im lucky! heh heh heh
irene's mom was being really nice to all of us, keep feeding us with food! which was really sweet of her and making sure we lack of nothing :)

laughing + eating = no fat gain

last but not least.........

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY MY LESBIAN BABY IRENE!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-11-25T00:08:00.000-08:00

lifes been good even though sch's such a burden. bah!

nothing beats being with my love :) and i really wish to have him all the time
but NO!!! irritating go*t have to take my baby away from me. i know its unavoidable but i only have lesss than two weeks with him. why so unfair lah! its making me really upset because im so gonna miss him. oh well! lecture notes and tutorials is going to take his place for now as common tests are starting in january. hiasss --"

work is going to be over for me. im gonna take a month break from working. studying is my main piority now. and im into saving money! hahs. jiaqi must be going yah right. lol. december is gonna be lonely or rather a whole good month to do self reflection and have sufficient rest.

exactly a week more before he leaves :(

2005-11-11T23:06:00.000-08:00

sch pretty good today
even though projects are more tedious and a lot more compared to last sem, i still think its a lot beter than last sem. less theory work and i dont have to spend so much time memorising texts.
and i like my new econs teacher,
a lady who dont want us to memorise text but understand it.
she uses words like crap/bitch/corny in her tutorials
and amuses us girls when she uses the guys for examples and teases them.
i understand econs so much better now...im so happy!

life's been pretty mudane.
im missing my love
but i wont disturb him cos he really need to concentrate on his studies now.
decided to work more since ive quit touch..five days a week.
a time to test my time mangement :)

cheekiest love,
you're being missed.

2005-11-09T01:20:00.000-08:00

holidays are out
school is in now :)

pretty glad holiday is over probably because the long and tiring hours spent at work is over.
but i have not got my fair share of rest and play lah!!!
immune system deteoriate due to over work and tireness. hence, that explains the flu/cough/sore throat.

the love have started his exams
and my project is starting to pile up.
but its ok, right baby? heh heh.
we'll enjoy in no time yeah!

lessons are good so far.
pretty satisfied with myself for completeing tutorials and getting thumbs up from tutors :)
and i must began to revise EVERYDAY. so i wont have to do last min study like the previous sem. and i really think im lucky enough to pass bstats with a miserable d. so this sem its a must to improve the grades!

its super tough to let go
a passion for touch and having to leave the cca and almost having no more chances to play the game i love is really terrible.
but due to some reasons, ive decided to leave.
consoling myself with comforting words such as -
oh..i will have more time to go out and study
i wont have to face certain people
i can join a club if i still want to continue playing the game
and having extra time means working more and earning more money
ahhhh...crap lah!
but one thing i'll miss are the crazy girls ive met in the game and the seniors who really taught me all these while.

i know its a loss to me, but the loss have its benefits as well.

big event coming up.
cant wait to have fun with the crazy colleagues!
but now....tutorials is calling out for me :)

im out!

2005-10-20T07:16:00.000-07:00

morning all :)
yah yah...i know what you all are thinking.
who the hell wakes up so early to post on her blog right
nah, was packing my tsunami hit table cos the man is coming to fix the grills tmr.
and since i'll be working till the wee morning hrs i reckon i shld just pack them
so mommy wont be a nag and start yakking the hell outta me.

met the girls last night. initially i thought i was meeting irene only.
hahs. who knows..the impromtu meet up.
and i finally saw row :)
nothing special...just sitting ard and talking.
its nice getting a good laugh after those horrible working hrs.

work later at ten and training.
the love is studying and i miss him. blah!

i need a getaway trip so badly.

2005-10-12T22:22:00.000-07:00

work was like living hell the past entire week.
bloody customers who claims to appreciate the cakes but in actual fact the buy one get one free slice of cake. cheapskate asses!
and a fat malay bitch (no offend to malays) fax a memo to every outlet to complain me and my colleague for speaking in singlish and not smiling. woah! ive became popular overnight :)

finally a rest day. 13 hours of sleep isnt enough. the day ends too quickly. bah!
watch forty year old virgin with my sweetest love this evening. hilarious and dumb.
seeing him after a week without him is soooooooo goooodddd!!!!
and love being the sweet one came to pick me up from training last night
and that made me very very happy :)

work starts tmr again....another week of living hell.
and sch starts when i get my pay. which means i wont have time to spend it.
oh well. my hols is ruin.

baby, i love you.

2005-10-03T23:59:00.000-07:00

no pretty clothes with make up and suave outfits with hair wax
no special or any sorts od fancy treats/gifts for this specal day
not even a movie with sweet pop-corns nachos and sprite
and not being at any hot spots like town
or squeezing among the crowd with humans with sticky bodies

just plain tee with berms and polo tee with fbt
with curry fish head sambal kang kong and coke/green tea
plus sticks of cigarattes
and dessert of each other :)

baby,
we've gone through almost everything
breakups and makeups
heartaches and lovely hearts
awkwardess was past
closeness is forever
its been almost a whole ninteen months
where we both grew to be more mature and understanding towards each other
and we both wants the best for each other

thanks for the guitar playing and singing to me
the off tunes made me laugh
the song specially for me made me cry
just as long as i have you with me,
its sweet enough. no any beautiful blings can replace you.

i love you mankali

2005-09-29T19:04:00.000-07:00

i am who i am to this date.
big thank you to...
the boy who love me for who i am
the girls who saw me through from sec sch days till now
the rouges and classmates of pj who went through the good and bad times with me
TF03 classmates and touch girls who go crazy with me all the time

i love you all :)

2005-09-29T01:57:00.000-07:00

holidays really made me miss you all so much :(

2005-09-27T00:03:00.000-07:00

working like hell for the past three days was torturing
twelve hours of sleep wasnt even enough
and baby is the best love
taking care of me, kisses and hugs from him despite feeling unwell himself :)
waiting for me to fall asleep before he proceeds to his maple
love's the best!
mankali i lub choo!

oohhh weee
im home :)
love's gonna start sch tmr
big thumbs down la!
but its good for him.

i'll just have to keep myself busy
more exercising
more clubbing (baby dont kill me)
more tanning session
more WINDOW shopping
and MAYBE i'll find a new job..ok i should. blah!

anyone got vcds or dvds to lend me?
so i can keep myself busy watching those. hahs
and it's so troublesome to collage photos but i'll still continue
cos it keeps me busy. hur hur.

got a haircut with love this afternoon
and he cant stop laughing when the stylist was finishing up
i have the most hilarious 70s hair-do and he said i look like his mom
mankali --" but it was good after its done. HAH!
now ive got the last laugh. lala~

dogs town was a movie which is good! touching. all abt friendship and loyalty :)
even the mankali likes it
and i realise theres a lot of smiley faces :)
heh heh heh
im happy!

2005-09-23T01:07:00.000-07:00

hey hey hey
holidays have started since fri and its been good till now
the girlfriends are still having exams and sch
so im either home or over at love's room :)
im done with naruto and im still waiting for the new episode to be release
ahhh..i hate suspense

so far ive only met jiaqi
and that day is good all the same
im missing the two girls-classmates (joanne/sascha)

mankali is at "meeting"
im still waiting for him to be back
whineesss.

i hate period
i hate cramps
bah!

2005-09-17T15:03:00.000-07:00

the monsters are all dead :)

met up with love with initial plan of a movie
but the times are just not right so we ended up sitting and talking rubbish

zouk with cat daph kelly von
beer vodka flamings
sure made us all way high last night
and we had a good time laughing at each other
and i can still feel the alcohol in my blood
all queasy and bloody headache.

my love good intention of picking up the very high me was appreciated
but in the end.....
i shant elaborate on it.

zouk tonight again? hahs.
i need new footwear :)

nana: new hangout will be at momo yes? haha.

2005-09-15T15:16:00.000-07:00

bstats was being an asshole yesterday
bloody paper :(
not sleeping for three nights for exams that i cant do well in
is fucking not worth it
bah.

one more monster to kill
then im off to celebrate
then its time for some naruto with my love

holidays always smells so so delicious.

2005-09-13T05:00:00.000-07:00

taking a breather from bloody econs.
three more chapters to go through :(

cip paper was being a big time fucker to me
during common cip common test they test me on floppy disks and cd-roms
and now they test me on ink-jet and laser printers
so i only wrote one sentence for the TWELVE marks question
!@#$%^&*

after the paper at two in the afternoon im left with two more monsters!
holidays seem so far but its only three days away

i think i better go back to learn more ways to kill the econs monster
:D

2005-09-05T00:17:00.000-07:00

fri sat and sun is spent "brilliantly"
cos its working and sleeping only :)
blah!

and mon to thur is mugging like hell time and its back to work again
aaahhhhhh
ive got NO life lah!

im looking forward to friday cos its family day :)
i cant wait!!!!

baby im amazed by you
so in love with you.

2005-09-01T02:01:00.000-07:00

fri was occupied by movie - "perth" *dont watch it sucks.
zouk with christina catherine nicky daphne

sat was exercise day with irene jiaqi jillyan
man was it fucking hard to cycle la! damnit!
then it was some funny rounds of games at coffeebean with them :)

and on sun i buried myself in to work for full 9 hours.
i was horribly exhausted.

sch for only two days and now it's study break for me.
no clubbing no clubbing.
jane! you'll die with my shots after exams! you watch it! WHAHAHHA.

seeing all the bloody notes i feel like dying la.
words so small paper so thick. cchheeebyeee! (jillyan's slang)
haha. at least ive got girls like her to destress me.

i love them all :)

2005-08-24T14:52:00.000-07:00

my mom came and distub my sleep by tickling my feet
hell was i irritated but you know she's my mom
and my bedsheet felt extremely wet
wait..i didnt pee or whatever ok. i was so hot that i perspire so much
and realise my temperature hit 39.3.
i was worried sick and scare i'll become stupid.
hahahs.

so ive been lying around and gonna try to studying a wee bit
my temp isnt going down after the panadols
so i must down more later and it taste horrible!

this week been pretty busy
im just looking forward to fri and sat
its such a joy to be with people i love :)

ciaos.

2005-08-17T00:04:00.000-07:00

you are such a disappointment.

i found out something
you didnt keep to your promise as you have said
what ever excuses you give now is useless
you have betrayed my trust to you again
ihate you.

being so nice to you
always hoping the best for you
but what the fuck did i get?

Sometimes I wish pride meant more to me;
then maybe you'd mean less.
Sometimes I wish being around you wasn't so easy;
then maybe letting you go wouldn't be so difficult

2005-08-16T00:32:00.000-07:00

insomia insomia insomia
fuck insomia la :(
im already very tired
sascha said i look very shagged
man..i bet i look awful now.

sometimes i hope you'll love all over again.

2005-08-15T20:22:00.000-07:00

was early for ob first time through the entire sem
but i was stoning and sleeping most of the time

cramps was hurting me so badly
my face was almost white
and poor sascha and jerald was worried that i might faint anytime
which i find it pretty amusing

went all the way to suntec to sastisfy my cravings
spent 27 dollars on candies
im a happy girl.

fever subsided but im stilll feeling light headed
and i decided not to run
tonsils still hurting and i cant stop coughing
aaaahhhhh
im looking forward to training tmr :)

2005-08-14T22:41:00.000-07:00

inter class game on sat was good
though we arent the champion but we were satisfied cos we gave our best shot :)

so altogether i have not sleep for two days
insomia is really killing me
insomia to irritating cough to torturing tonsils to rising fever
appetite is bad and im killing my throat with nicotine which is very bad too
i might as well go die la :(
hahahahahah

but talking to my lesbian baby irene made me a whole lot better
she's my babygirl my sweets my moral supprt
aiyahhh..my everything la!
irene i heart you ok!!!

sch tmr again
another test on thurs
exams are nearing
mugging time!

who wanan study with me?

2005-08-13T05:00:00.000-07:00

insomia is hitting me back again
i know i'll fall asleep near six but i cant cos ive got rugby at eight
and work at two till eleven
its back to busy life style again :)

the only time im happy is the time i see you happy
get it?
i really wanna be a lil princess and behave like a small girl
and i know only in front of you i can be one
its hard to put up a tough front
its hard to keep wearing a smile
im tired
only you can make me be myself
only you can keep the smile on my face
but you just refuse to do it.

and i reckon i have to live with it.

2005-08-12T03:17:00.000-07:00

days before my birthday, the aftermath and up till now
i receive scoldings wishes and more scoldings or rather lectures
i sincerely apologise to the beloved ones that i have hurt
you all know what im talking about

and to you,
i do not know how long more i can take this
everytime i wish one day i could turn back time and return to the past
but i know the one day will never come.
no matter how much i envy the couples i see everywhere
how badly jealous i'll get
its useless
its pointless

everyone needs and wants to be love
by family friends and that someone special
i had the two of the above mention
but there is still one missing
and do you know its a torture?

i get all light up when i see your msgs, calls and you
but when you give me the cold shoulder
ignoring whatever i sent you
dont take whatever i say seriously
it hurts

everything happens in a club
you told me you'll be like this
fine
i accept it and take it all
but when it really happens
it was killing me from within and it was horrid
and yet you can take it lightly and not give it a damn
you hurt me once again

i dont wanna carry this on anymore
i love you yet you are hurting me
let me tell you something,
i'll never forget what you said when you were drunk that night
those words are like grinding glass chips against my heart
you'll never feel me anymore cos you've changed

like what you said to me,
you are irreplaceable in my heart.

2005-08-11T15:53:00.000-07:00

zouk last night was a lil wild
moving like theres no tmr
prolly i wasnt feeling happy

why is god so unfair at times?
why some pple get everything they want and i dont?
im sorry but i just cant help saying i hate seeing couples everywhere
i never asked for money or ever lasting life
im just asking for some love
is it just too much?

fuck it.
im just fucking unlucky then
off to train and run till i drop exhausted

2005-08-10T00:30:00.000-07:00

photos are up
the old and the new ones are together :)
http://www.wyanngoesclub.mypicgallery.com

2005-08-09T18:42:00.000-07:00

whopee! i jsut had my breakfast lunch and dinner.
hahs.
im just waiting for my ice cream cake later :)

its my birthday and damn! im like 19 already
one more year of teenage and i'll be hitting the BIG 2!

yesterday started off with a sucky presentation follow by a rotten bstats test
but the girls surprise me with a birthday cake!
and i ended up going home covered with fresh cake cream

to eugene jerald joanne sascha stanely,
thanks for cake and present. the surprise was really sweet!
sch would be like iving in hell without you all
love you all!!!

party at zouk later in the night
the party was kinda bad because the music was horrible.
but nevertheless, i had fun because i had good company i swear!

to irene jillyan may,
thanks for the nice and useful present! and i had a good time with you girls just talking by the riveside :) you know i love you many many many!!!

to nana princess!
thanks for the ohmygoodness present from you! hahs. the of cos the flaming that tasted damn eeee. and you were like so damn high and no worries ok! if ever you lost your cam i promise i'll hunt the person down for you!

to cat daphne and nicky,
thanks for the wonderful time and of cos nicky..the so bitter cosmopolitian!
but it was all good cos its from you aight! really a big thank you to you girls and daphne, its ok..im not angry cos you were drunk. at least i know you had fun! and enjoy at the national day parade aight! and advance thank you for the air-flown present!!! hugs*

to jen zul crystal,
your presence is realyl appreciated ok!!! thank for coming and jen i hope you enjoyed dmc! crystal im sorry for keep mentioning i wanan vomit. hahs. but the porridge was nice aint it?!?! anyway thank you all for coming!!!

yvonne jody and cindy,
it was really a pleasant surprise! jody, thank you for making the effort to come down when you are not feeling well ok. and von, thanks for being by my side whenever things was bad, rest assured you have me to lean on as well! cindy! your presence is a very nice present alr! take care and i'll see you soon!!!

dom kenneth micky mouse and best,
dom..thanks for being the "event organiser" hahahahs. helping get the invites and the table. it was really nice of you. part wont be a party without you! and thanks for the lolli kenneth! that was really a sweet sweet surprise! mickey and best..thanks for the wishes!!!

mervyn,
nice seeing you again and thanks for the wishes :) see you ard aight!

to the dumberum toot,
million thanks for coming down even when you wanted to go gotham cos most of your friends were there. and having an idiotic jerk to topple your newly bought jugs of drinks. getting all piss with the pple ard the dancefloor. you still stayed on..thank you so much boy :)

i think i thank almost everyone who was there last night.

thanks you everyone for the bday wishes!!!

2005-08-07T23:14:00.000-07:00

im feeling damn shagged
im done studying with bstats but will stay up to do more revision
i dont wanna flunk man
and i have to prepare for tmr's presentation
damn piss with it!

eyes are watery and red cos im really tired already
but the party awaits tmr
actually im not looking for the party
rather the girls i'll be seeing
more booze more dance more love from my girls
say yes!

anyway, pple getting invites from me please meet outside zouk at 920 aight

i forgot to mention something

liars please fuck off.

2005-08-07T04:00:00.000-07:00

i had midnight movies this weekend
the island was good
charlie and the choc factory was so cute and funny
great company :)

ive been working and i haven started studying bstats
test on mon
presentation due on mon
what the fuck

still considering if i shld go for work tmr
i really need to pass the damn test

sometimes i really wonder why some girls are just plain whores.

2005-08-05T00:57:00.000-07:00

everything's over.
im too elated for words!
so one photo is enough..

my sweetest lesbian baby.
i love you.
and no macy lulu jane can replace you
i promise.

2005-08-01T08:46:00.000-07:00

wed fri sat was spend partying with my pretty princess chistina :)
more to come yeah! hahs.
our lameness are getting to us real bad
heh heh heh

work was ok on sun
dont you just detest pple who always claim credits
fuck you bitch. so what if you worked in some high class banquet shit
that doesnt gives you the right to not respect us.
whatever. i HATE you!!!

the weekend is spent really well.
nice and sweet just like the past
thank you very much dumberum :)

lalallalaa
im in sch waiting for the two pretty ladies to arrive
mommy and daddy is coming back tmr midnight
i cant wait to see them! i miss them! as well as the presents.
whahahahhaa =p

gotta study now. sian~

2005-07-29T00:53:00.000-07:00

before sch starts, i was worrying about the age gap difference of me and my classmates
but i thank god for sending me two pretty angels
their words of encouragment
their blurness, laughters, lame jokes, and most importantly
their presence :)
there's only one thing in common among us
we are all from girls school
now i know why we clique so well
and we promise we will be with each other even after we graduate
so now i shall show you the two sweet looking ladies

joanne and sascha

us at buffet

2005-07-28T19:18:00.000-07:00

i pass my econs
yeah!

2005-07-28T14:13:00.000-07:00

i woke up around one plus to realise i miss my econs lecture at nine
so ive cleverly decided to not go sch at all :)

2005-07-27T11:04:00.000-07:00

skipped the useless lectures again
aching like fuck from yesterday circuit training
ahhh
but i vow to go for a run after i get back from sch later
done with bstats tut and now im waiting for time to pass

and im off to dance tonight :)

2005-07-25T23:35:00.000-07:00

aahhh
feeling so gross now cos i cant go for my run
why
cos im having the runs
fuck the oysters lah!
or rather me being too greedy
okk..i was rather excited when i saw the oysters
so i help myself to it happily

more runs more runs!!!!!
im feeling so uncomfortable now
tummy bloated
feeling damn nauseous
urgh!

i have so many photos in my phone but i cant upload them
its pissing me off
i hate samsung!

sch tmr but i dont think im gonna go
i dont wanna go running to toilet like a mad lady
shall see :)

i miss a lot of pple a lot a lot..soooo....

b: you are always so damn far! and now you are not coming back!!!

christina: though ive been seeing you often catch ups are still very lil yeah..hope you've been good and attend sch ok!!! and i really hate it when you always look so good in all the photos! so unfair la! why huh?!?!? blah! im gonna make you look unglam so i can be prettier! evil grins* heh heh...see ya on wed!

charlene: ive been missing you so damn much. As arent easy i know, but strive hard cos i know you can make it girl. see you soon please!!! lets go drink and dance all worries away aight!?

fee: why do you have to go back? why!!!!

hazel: nice seeing you often too..and its always good to talk to you :)

irene: good seeing you happy and all. thanks for being here all the time.

jillyan: just to let you know im missing you still.

von: relationships is always so fucked up. so chill ok. im glad things are good all the same :)

yokie: you are always my love guru! thank you so much and love you ok!

im out.

2005-07-24T23:07:00.000-07:00

work had a lil tension
playing middle-lady for relationship aint easy
oh well.
fuck relationship la. so irritating only
hahs

yeah. i cant wait for sch to end tmr because buffet and shopping awaits
the bad thing is sch starts
urgh!

mom and dad leaving for hong kong tmr morning
good cos i can havoc for an entire week
bad i'll miss mommy's nagging and dad's presence
but mommy promise me pretty watch bags and earrings.
so im waiting for them to come back home :)

this week is gonna be another hectic week
but i like!

2005-07-24T03:26:00.000-07:00

relationships are beautiful and sweet
yet can be cruel and ugly
fuck it

work was ogayyyy
nothing new anyway

town with crystal christina and dom
met hazel eileen and their friend for a lil chit chat at coffee bean
more chit chat with cat and daphne at spinelli

four of us roam around town for the night
and dom's "ping pong game" at the arcade was fun
its actually table hockey
its was the joke for the night

damn tired
and there's work at twelve noon
i miss running
argh!

im looking forward to next week
cos ive so many plans
i love to be busy
it's good for pple recovering from painful memories

buffet trainings running clubbing tea-ing
i cant wait.

2005-07-22T06:21:00.000-07:00

im dead tired
fuck shit!
although im done with the three chapters for cip test at 8
im not confident with it at all
im always saying its common sense lah!
but after reading the bloody long notes
it took me fucking five long hours to finish them
i dont think its common sense anymore
knn.

i really dont know how am i gonna finish the test later
i really really really hope its not essay form test.
wish me luck

coffee please.

2005-07-21T21:52:00.000-07:00

im back :)

and sadly
i have to leave to attend the cip leture notes that is screaming at me

oh before i leave,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!!!